3 posts tagged “smiley”

Most of you will know, that as much as I'm a sociable little butterfly, I get narky if I don't get enough alone time. Which, if I'm honest is spent watching bad films and eating food that will give me a heart attack. Yep. I ditch you for fried chicken and Julia Roberts. Sorry.

But I've realised now how important that time is. Especially at the moment. The date I had at the weekend was actually perfect. And said guy is great. But I don't want to jump into anything at the moment. I'm just happy being me. Just me. On my own.

This is the first time in ages that things have been right. Work is great. I actually have a career for goodness sake. I've got rid of some dead weight in my life that I just don't need, and I've ditched friends that aren't good for me. I'm really truly happy.

When I'm not happy, I have a habit of thinking a guy will solve all of my problems. Or, at least distract me from them. Which is of course rubbish. Men are not magic genies. They are pretty silly a lot of the time. But I like to focus on something else instead of sorting my life out. Let's face it, as much as I enjoy writing, having sex is much more fun than writing proposals to Time Out.

So now, I've got everything sorted and I actually skipped into work a little bit yesterday. And yeah, of all the times for me to start seeing someone, now would be it. But after chatting with Cate yesterday and drinking a few glasses of wine, I realised that just because it's probably the right time for me, doesn't mean I have to start seeing someone. I just want to spend time having fun and enjoying being me. Despite that sounding like something from a self-help book.

I just don't think I need a man right now. I'm having too much fun with all of the new things going on in my life. Like waking up smiling, that kinda thing. Yeah, I'm sure it would be great with a guy too, but it wouldn't be any better.

I start my new job tomorrow. Eeeeeshk!

But actually, I'm feeling more of a happy 'eeeeshk' than a scary 'eeeeeshk' if that makes sense. I didn't realise there was different 'eeeeeshks'. Yeah so it's scary and stuff, but in an exciting way. I get to take on new projects, play in town and learn fun things. With people who were really nice when I met them on Thursday.

So instead of freaking out, I'm actually being pretty chilled. I've done lots of work and stuff today and feel on top of stuff. I've also spent the day flirting with a handsome boy. We're going on a picnic on Saturday... that's all the nosy gossip you're getting today...

I feel... centred. If that isn't too much of a wanky word. I feel like I've got my act together a little bit (I did invoicing on time today!) and I feel prepared for whatever is thrown at me. Yeah some of it will be daunting and I won't have a clue what's going on, but I'll get to grips with it. I've been hired because I can do the job and I believe that.

So not scary. Happy. Smiley. Shiny.

A pretty good 'eeeeshk'.

Eeeeshk!!!

PS - I'm blonde now too. Which looks fab so therefore tomorrow will be excellent.

This week has a very cool feeling about it. There are a lot of things happening all at once, but it feels exciting. Some really excellent stuff could happen this week and I'm really smiley.

And by the sounds of it, I also get to see all you lovely people at some point this week. How can I not be smiley?